I am driven by envy and petty snobbery more than I am driven by passion

and that's the truth of it

harsh truth

on the other hand why not capitalise on it. now I've got a premise for a story. a driven, flawed charackter with a heck of a conflict potential. It's self-insert and I plan on using ideas from audio dramas that i've been listening lately but I-do-not-care.