The one whom I most doubted opened this path. It all started with thyme. It's funny, cause I started with the most difficult herbs. I so anxiously hunt for the sun for this. But I still don't see life in this. Perhaps I'll be pleasantly surprised when I return. 

Well, to be honest, I just wanted to feel alive. Right now. It was a difficult week and I'm trying to reborn. Because there are many difficult weeks ahead. 

But I have a good feeling. The feeling that when this is over, I can be free. And I believe that feeling. So everything is fine.