There is such a state of mind. You know what I mean?

When you want to fall asleep and sleep for several weeks. After all, a dream is now your salvation. When you want to disappear from this world for a while.

This is like a crucial moment. All you dream about is to get distracted, at least for a few hours. But you won’t succeed. And you always know that. Because at this crucial moment, nothing pleases you. Nothing. And all you want is to temporarily cease to exist. To return to your body, to your life, to your world when this damn moment ends. 

I'm writing this now not because the moment has come. I'm writing this to remind myself that it will come. And this isn't the end of everything. This is what is possible and necessary to survive. Find this letter when the time comes. Remind yourself that you always knew that. Meet this damn moment with the realization that nothing lasts forever. Neither he. And neither you. You are stronger than you think now. And you are ready. 

There is such a state of mind. You know what I mean?

Yes. You know.