i was thinking

what if actually did die in your bath, because i don't feel alive since

i was intoxicated as hell

i was shaking and kept saying that i'm gonna die now, you were cold showering me and it was your birthday

if not

even though it's so selfish and i don't actually want this for you

i wish i did die in your bath, in your arms

it would be the best

i don't think that something is coming for me anyway

now it's only surviving day by day with no purpose

you were my purpose